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just some things I've recently found and want to keep not lost//

"I like my body when it is with your body. It is so quite new a thing. Muscles better and nerves more."

"We've got to live, no matter how many skies have fallen"

//i carry your heart with me (i carry it in

my heart) i am never without it (anywhere

i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done

by only me is your doing,my darling)

——————————————————— i fear

no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet) i want

no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)\\

--E.e. cummings

Life was textured when they were side by side. It had pain, which gave it color and weight. 358 kilograms - that is the weight of my love and my pain all put together by physical equations. I am undetermined, unsettled, hardly here. I am adrift and yet you call for me and you ask me to be yours. How can you call without understanding what wrenches my heart into pieces and makes me shed my skin inside out? You know nothing about my clenched teeth at night. I am no pleasant lay. I am heavy - not only in my body - in my soul. I breathe and exist heavily, so as to burden you in all ways possible.